Dreary Day

Well, it has been a long time since I last wrote anything. Today is my "Monday" and it sucks all ready. To catch up with everything.............

I slipped and fell at my apartment. I hit my head and missed almost two weeks of work. I am better, but my hair fell out when a scar grew on my scalp. I don't have a bald patch, however, you can feel the scar and there is no hair there. It is kinda creepy.

During my break, I decided to move to Nashville next year. It will probably be around February or March. I am scared to death to move to another place, but I have to leave all of my demons here in Atlanta. I want a new start and I want to be closer to my family. I am missing everything and my family needs me now. So much is going on with my cousing. Lara, who is 8, is having seizures and her brain function has diminished. A few months ago, she was making all A's and now she can barely spell her name. Donnie, the 5 year old, is running his parents crazy and has been diagnosed as "mentally retarded." Now, Lara's biological father is trying to get Lara on disability so he and his new wife can have the check. This man has not paid a dime in child support.

Craig and I argue over everything!! I can't take it. My blood pressure is sky high. He is stressing me out! Everything turns into an argument. I cannot live like this. Sometimes I think I am being petty, but I know I cannot live with someone like him. He yells at my dog and threatens her. He says that he is only joking, but I still don't like it. He has no patience. He is always the "victim" because of his kidney failure. When I had a concussion, he did not care. He just kept asking when I was going back to work. He expects me to work 60 hours a week, do the laundry, clean the apartment, cook, and do dishes. No. I am not a maid. He is at home every night. He keeps saying that he is busy on the computer. It takes two minutes to put laundry in the dryer. I am being taken advantage of, and I know it. I can't wait to leave him.

Then my job sucks. We have to do mandatory overtime plus I am working to midnight. I never get any sleep because I had to be on Craig's schedule. I am heading for a heart attack. The sooner '06 gets here the better. I am miserable. I only have work and home and both are terrible.

Enough complaining. Back to the CCC hell!!